Find You in the Dark by A. Meredith Walters

6 May

find you in the darkTitle: Find You in the Dark

Author: A. Meredith Walters

Published: October 2012

Publisher: Amazon Digital Services, Inc.

Pages: 290

Goodreads Summary:

Maggie Young had the market on normal. Normal friends, normal parents, normal grades…normal life.

Until him.

Clayton Reed was running from his past and an army of personal demons that threatened to take him down. He never thought he had a chance at happiness.

Until her.

Maggie thought their love could overcome anything. Clay thought she was all he needed to fix his messy life.

That together, they could face the world.

But the darkness is always waiting.

Sometimes the greatest obstacle to true love is within yourself.

My Rating: 4 stars

My Thoughts:

This story broke my heart again and again. It was such a heavy, chaotic, emotional roller coaster. One second I was saying awe and the next I was wondering what the hell just happened!

Maggie is an ordinary girl with an ordinary life until Clayton Reed enters it and literally turns her world upside down. The instant she meets him, Maggie gets under Clay’s skin. Her fun and quirky personality helps to lift Clays dark, brooding, and lonely moods that always surround him. As they become closer, Maggie sees Clay at his worst and pull secrets and emotions out of him that he planned on keeping to himself. His past is dark and destructive and as the story goes on, it’s clear that a repeat is inevitable.

I loved Clay, I really did, but man did he have some serious issues. Obviously, they weren’t his fault and were due to his mental illness, but sometimes it was hard to understand him and his motives because he was that broken. My heart broke for him again and again and for Maggie because she was so pure and genuine in her pursuit of loving Clay and making him whole again. In a twisted sort of way, their love for each other was beautiful and even though many issues stemmed from it, their hearts were always true and in the right place.

Even though I loved both the characters and I felt that I was connected to them both, it was impossible to really feel everything they felt and I don’t mean this in a bad way at all. The writing was amazing, as was the complexity and depth of the characters. I couldn’t even imagine being in Maggie’s place and having to make the decisions she did. Nothing in her relationship was ever stable because Clay was so unpredictable, but still she stood resolute and fought for them with every bit of strength that she had, especially when Clay couldn’t.

One thing that I really liked in this book was that the author stressed the point of how unhealthy their relationship became. I feel that in a lot of books the male characters act like Clay and nothing is technically wrong with them. Then the author puts a happy face on the unhealthy things by insinuating that they are “romantic” or “sweet” and it’s just wrong. I mean seriously? Emotional abusing relationships are not romantic. Walters makes very clear that nothing about these relationships are okay but it is okay to get help and make them work.

If you want a light romantic read then this book sure as heck isn’t for you but if you want a story that is heavy, painful, and beautiful simultaneously with depth and heart then you will love this story.


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